Commentary: After my scathing critique of the book she gave me for us to read together, The 5 Love Languages for Men, & her motivation for giving it to me (Wayback Machine), Miss Mozart rang my mobile in a fury, very much echoing the distaff voice in "Break Your Heart" (the bridge, the third stanza below). She cried every time I talked about my desire to be a priest. She cried every time I expressed any misgivings about our romance. She cried last night. Forgive my arrogance in perceiving the consistent waterworks as weakness. How else was I supposed to understand those tears? I'm at a total loss here, which probably supports my contention that I'm just not suited to be in a romance.
"The bravest thing I've ever done
Was to run away and hide,
But not this time, not this time,
And the weakest thing I've ever done
Was to stay right by your side,
Just like this time and every time.
I couldn't tell you I was happy you were gone,
So I lied and said that missed you when we were apart.
I couldn't tell you, so I had to lead you on,
But I didn't mean to break your heart.
"And if I always seem distracted
Like my mind is somewhere else,
That's because it's true; yes, it's true.
It's this stupid pride that makes me feel
Like I have to follow through,
Even half-assedly, loving you,
Why must I always speak in terms of cowardice?
But I guess I should have come out and told you right from the start.
Oh, why must I always tell you all I want is this?
I guess 'cause I didn't want to break your heart.
"You said,
'What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Curl up and die just because of you?
I'm not that weak, you know.
What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Try to make you love me as much as I loved you?
How could you be so low?
You arrogant man!
What do you think that I am?
My heart will be fine,
Just stop wasting my time.'
"And now I know that you will be O.K.
And that I got what I want,
And that's rid of you,
Good-bye.
And it's not 'cause I'll be missing you
That makes me fall apart,
It's just that I didn't mean to break,
No, I didn't mean to break,
No, I didn't mean to break
Your heart."
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